Life is not a video game.

I had my interview with University of MS Medical Center yesterday. Three interviewers, thirty minutes, three hundred things circling through my mind. Prayers from my love, my family, and my friends kept me calm throughout the interviews. I could not ask for a better network of friends. And I definitely could not ask for a better boyfriend.

I cheated the night before my interview, and read the Verse of the [next] Day. I know God has timing better than a metronome, but why am I still shocked when He is visible precisely when I need it?

Ps. 32:8 [nlt]
"The LORD says,
"I will guide you along the best pathway for your life.
I will advise you and watch over you."'

He knows where I need to be this year and the next in order to become the person He is making me. And nothing will get in the way of His plan. So, here comes trust, faith, love, rest, and peace. I'm glad I am not in control of my life....as if it were a video game. God's hands are holding me and I have nothing to worry about.

Visibility

It's hard to believe I have a wonderful boyfriend
who loves me very much.
It's hard to believe I am in my Senior year of college.
It's hard to believe I have a Medical School Interview in a month.
It's hard to believe I'm driving 3.5 hours tomorrow
because the State wants to give me money.
It's hard to believe I donated my hair.
It's hard to believe I will see all my family this month.
It's hard to believe all the blessings God has given me.
It's hard to believe I'm living in such love.....

It's the middle of the week. Life has been a mess.

Thursday night, I started getting sick.
Friday, it was not the flu.
Saturday, I drove home (and shopped with my sisters!).
Sunday, I almost fainted.
Monday, I went to class.
Tuesday, was yesterday.

True story. I should take a job as a story teller. I can see it working.

The Tyra Banks Show is interesting. I'm watching it now. [not right right now, since commercials are playing]. First, couples came on talking about open relationships. Now, I am learning about the three words that will cause any girl to get a date. Like I said, interesting.

I ate a peanut butter/honey sandwich for lunch. It was amazing. And my little satsuma was the perfect addition. I kind of feel bad eating them sometimes. Satsumas. They sit so adorably in my hand. And when I take the peeling off and separate the individual slices...they kind of look lonely. So I just eat them really fast. I don't want to keep making them miserable, you know.

I have the best boyfriend ever. He puts up with me...even when I'm sneezing, coughing, and sniffling 24/7. Heart. And it's 4:22 right now. Which is perfect.

And I think I'll try to take a nap now. Give my body a little time to rest for once. And have Jesus time. Helps my miiiind and soul. [I....don't know why I said "mind" like that. Shrugs.]

-out

[heart]

Sonnet 43 by Elizabeth Barret Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints!---I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!---and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

o, happy day

These have been happy days.
School starts next week, and I am so not ready for any of the moving, classes, or homework. But, it will be good to see my friends again, learn knew things, and not be two hours from my boyfriend. :P

God's ways are so different than ours.
and I like 'em! :]
-Carolita

The Day After Today

tomorrow...tomorrow...i love ya....tomorrow
you're only a daaaaaay awayyyyy

I take my MCAT tomorrow.
And then I will be free to chill in the best way possible.
I do hope my test goes well.
[Jesus? ;)]
I think I've narrowed it down to reading comprehension.
Which could be good or extremely bad.
Let's go with the former for happiness' sake.
And yeah, I'm just rambling about my test now.
Because.

Signing out,
-C

MC; Fall; 09

So, this morning is my FREAK OUT ABOUT SCHOOL morning. I know, Friday is supposed to be relaxing, but really....who doesn't want to FREAK OUT ABOUT SCHOOL on a Friday? It's so perfect!

I ordered my textbooks. All 57 of them.

[okay, so it's only 12]
[so far]

And, another reason to FREAK OUT ABOUT SCHOOL: I discovered, much to my dismay, that instead of starting like normal day classes do, my classes start August the 24th! Lovely. And I will be in Virginia. So, this will be interesting. And I hope Audra loves me enough to take notes for me in Embryo the first night. Maybe if I tempt her with the promise of candy...

[sigh. i do love me some all-caps.]