Why do I continually mimic a pendulum?
And what controls the swing of things inside of me?
"oh, bother.."
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
trust
I'm a work in progress....but I have learned so much today. And will learn even more tomorrow, I know. It's like Jesus is handing me all these things, forcing me to TRUST Him and Him alone. Not myself, the world, or anyone in it.
and the amazingly funny thing that blows me away each time? when I do trust Him, He goes above and beyond anything I hoped or imagined....just to make it perfect.
<3
and the amazingly funny thing that blows me away each time? when I do trust Him, He goes above and beyond anything I hoped or imagined....just to make it perfect.
<3
Sunday, March 22, 2009
dreams
I had another horrible dream last night. It was the end of the world. Well, more like the horrible things happening before the actual end of the world moment. And if people inhaled this certain gas, then they would die and their bodies would snap in half at the waist. Yeah, Mom made me stop telling her any more once I reached that point.
I just wish I could get some sleep without weirdness. It's not realistic. The dimensions in dreams are so different than reality. And dreams portray Time when he was still young. Now, if these dreams actually made sense, then maybe it would be different. And, the funny thing is, I wish God would speak to me in dreams. Like, I have longed for the gift of dreams and visions for ever. If this is it, though, it's disturbing, unsettling, and freaky.
Could you clear things up for me just a little, God?
I just wish I could get some sleep without weirdness. It's not realistic. The dimensions in dreams are so different than reality. And dreams portray Time when he was still young. Now, if these dreams actually made sense, then maybe it would be different. And, the funny thing is, I wish God would speak to me in dreams. Like, I have longed for the gift of dreams and visions for ever. If this is it, though, it's disturbing, unsettling, and freaky.
Could you clear things up for me just a little, God?
Sunday, March 15, 2009
omnipresence
You are so perfect, Jesus. So unlike fleshly me. Repeatedly, I mess up; have mood swings, attitudes. Yet you, wrapped in patience, just keep holding me in your powerful arms and continue giving me your peaceful smile. Because You know I will come back around soon enough. And when I do, You never want me to feel alone. Thanks.
Friday, March 13, 2009
i definitely fit in the box
The stereotypical homeschooler. X the boxes that apply to you.
Growing up/now
[x] Own/have owned a denim jumper (flea markets!!)
[x] You were at least 13 when you got your first "trendy" haircut [try 18!]
[x] Everything in your closet at some time was referred to as modest
[x] You do/have tucked things in that shouldn't be tucked in
[ ] You have been a member of at least 3 co-ops
[x] You were a true 16 and never been kissed
[x] Your mom drives a van of some sort
[x] You have at least one childhood picture where you, your mom, and all you siblings matched [ack!]
[ ] You are/were/will be a PSEO Student
[x] At some point in your life you were more comfortable with adults than kids your own age
[ ] Have studied ways to defend your beliefs, debate, and/or create laws [well…not to structurally, anyway]
[x] Used super conservative Abeka curriculum [haha. Not Abeka, but..yeah]
Total: 9
[x] You use big words that most adults could not use in conversation
[x] You can use the words sublime, epiphany, and cognicent correctly [um…if I’m correct, cognizant is spelled incorrectly]
[x] You have a favorite word.
[ ] You have an understanding of Latin root words and how to use them
[x] People from the outside world are referred to as "public schoolers"
[x]You or one of your siblings knits. [did!]
[x] You laugh at the decline in literacy inAmerica
[x] You score constantly higher than "public schoolers" on standardized tests.
[ ] You have no concept of cafeteria food [gag. College has cursed me]
[x] Family vacations are/ can be referred to as "Field Trips" [so true. My first real vacation was Christmas 2007]
[ ] Traveling on said vacations have included stopping at historical site markers along the way [not so much, actually…]
[ ] You have never been in a public elementary school, middle school, or high school during regular school hours
[x] You have gone to or been involved in a homeschool convention
Total so far: 18
[x] You read books on a regular basis
[x] You have taken part in a political protest
[x] You were a Pride and Prejudice fan before the movie [OF COURSE]
[x] You were a Lord of the Rings fan prior to the movie
[x] You were a Chronicles of Narnia fan before the movie
[ ] You speak a language other than English [hear me cry]
[x] You dream of dating characters from books instead of celebrities [still do, my friend….there is no one other than Malcolm who can have my heart…]
Total so far: 24
It (has been) assumed that you: [talking strictly about the past, here! As in, many moons ago]
[ ] Have won many spelling bees
[x] Have no social life
[ ] Have no friends of the opposite gender [you know, I never got accused of this one….odd]
[x] Are outstandingly smart
[x]Are extremely inept
[ ] Only listen to classical music
[x] Play piano or the violin
[x] Do not own a pair of trendy jeans.
[x] Have no knowledge of drugs or alcohol
[x] Don't date, only court. [it has been assumed….people are weird]
[x] Have never been to a "party"
[x] Know no other beliefs other than what your family believes
Total so far: 33
You have been asked more than 10 times:
[x] If you wear pajamas to school
[x] If you get perfect grades because your mom grades you
[x] If your mom teaches you or if somebody else's mom does
[x] How do you meet people
[x] Why you aren't in school
[x] If you get days off whenever you want
[x] If you're going to be homeschooled through college
[x] If you have a big family
[ ] What your parents are protecting you from [people just drew their own conclusions on this one and didn’t bother asking…]
[ ] To quote something famous
[x] For the answer, because supposedly homeschoolers always have all the answers
Total so far: 42
You have rebelled by:
[x] Listening to "worldly music"
[ ] Wearing black fingernail polish. [I want to….*laughs!*
[ ] Wearing tight clothes
[x] Watching a *gasp* PG-13 movie
[x] Breaking dress code [ok, but not…like….breaking my standards, here…]
[x] Listening to music with a beat
subtract this from total
total: 38
1-10 You're not really a homeschooler...you just do school at home
11-21 You're a homeschooler, but not what the world expects
22-32 You're a homeschooler
33-? You probably wouldn't have facebook to begin with...but congrats you're the stereotypical homeschooler
Growing up/now
[x] Own/have owned a denim jumper (flea markets!!)
[x] You were at least 13 when you got your first "trendy" haircut [try 18!]
[x] Everything in your closet at some time was referred to as modest
[x] You do/have tucked things in that shouldn't be tucked in
[ ] You have been a member of at least 3 co-ops
[x] You were a true 16 and never been kissed
[x] Your mom drives a van of some sort
[x] You have at least one childhood picture where you, your mom, and all you siblings matched [ack!]
[ ] You are/were/will be a PSEO Student
[x] At some point in your life you were more comfortable with adults than kids your own age
[ ] Have studied ways to defend your beliefs, debate, and/or create laws [well…not to structurally, anyway]
[x] Used super conservative Abeka curriculum [haha. Not Abeka, but..yeah]
Total: 9
[x] You use big words that most adults could not use in conversation
[x] You can use the words sublime, epiphany, and cognicent correctly [um…if I’m correct, cognizant is spelled incorrectly]
[x] You have a favorite word.
[ ] You have an understanding of Latin root words and how to use them
[x] People from the outside world are referred to as "public schoolers"
[x]You or one of your siblings knits. [did!]
[x] You laugh at the decline in literacy in
[x] You score constantly higher than "public schoolers" on standardized tests.
[ ] You have no concept of cafeteria food [gag. College has cursed me]
[x] Family vacations are/ can be referred to as "Field Trips" [so true. My first real vacation was Christmas 2007]
[ ] Traveling on said vacations have included stopping at historical site markers along the way [not so much, actually…]
[ ] You have never been in a public elementary school, middle school, or high school during regular school hours
[x] You have gone to or been involved in a homeschool convention
Total so far: 18
[x] You read books on a regular basis
[x] You have taken part in a political protest
[x] You were a Pride and Prejudice fan before the movie [OF COURSE]
[x] You were a Lord of the Rings fan prior to the movie
[x] You were a Chronicles of Narnia fan before the movie
[ ] You speak a language other than English [hear me cry]
[x] You dream of dating characters from books instead of celebrities [still do, my friend….there is no one other than Malcolm who can have my heart…]
Total so far: 24
It (has been) assumed that you: [talking strictly about the past, here! As in, many moons ago]
[ ] Have won many spelling bees
[x] Have no social life
[ ] Have no friends of the opposite gender [you know, I never got accused of this one….odd]
[x] Are outstandingly smart
[x]Are extremely inept
[ ] Only listen to classical music
[x] Play piano or the violin
[x] Do not own a pair of trendy jeans.
[x] Have no knowledge of drugs or alcohol
[x] Don't date, only court. [it has been assumed….people are weird]
[x] Have never been to a "party"
[x] Know no other beliefs other than what your family believes
Total so far: 33
You have been asked more than 10 times:
[x] If you wear pajamas to school
[x] If you get perfect grades because your mom grades you
[x] If your mom teaches you or if somebody else's mom does
[x] How do you meet people
[x] Why you aren't in school
[x] If you get days off whenever you want
[x] If you're going to be homeschooled through college
[x] If you have a big family
[ ] What your parents are protecting you from [people just drew their own conclusions on this one and didn’t bother asking…]
[ ] To quote something famous
[x] For the answer, because supposedly homeschoolers always have all the answers
Total so far: 42
You have rebelled by:
[x] Listening to "worldly music"
[ ] Wearing black fingernail polish. [I want to….*laughs!*
[ ] Wearing tight clothes
[x] Watching a *gasp* PG-13 movie
[x] Breaking dress code [ok, but not…like….breaking my standards, here…]
[x] Listening to music with a beat
subtract this from total
total: 38
1-10 You're not really a homeschooler...you just do school at home
11-21 You're a homeschooler, but not what the world expects
22-32 You're a homeschooler
33-? You probably wouldn't have facebook to begin with...but congrats you're the stereotypical homeschooler
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